Clementi Wong Yii Jhy

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To be honest with whoever is reading this story, I am not the kind of person who likes to share my vocation journey because I feel like I am boasting about this calling. Furthermore, I often ask myself what if I don’t succeed in becoming a priest after sharing these thoughts?

I consider my calling to this vocation as not being special, but just like that of anyone else who is trying to run away from reality. The initiative motive was like “let God take care of me without worrying about anything”. However, now I realize that I was taking God’s word too literally and for granted. Up till now, I can only partly understand that whatever drew me to the priesthood can only be to the “the initiation”. However, no matter what the calling may seem to be, inevitably it is a mystery why or how somebody joins the priesthood. For example, there were a lot of callings which came into my head, which asked me to join the priesthood, but when I reflected on them all, most of them were irrational and illogical, but why am I still here, still pursuing the priesthood?

This is when my inspiration came. Since it is a mystery, this vocation is full of it. I keep on telling myself “I haven’t discovered every part of this journey”. Hence, this situation fills me with curiosity and, therefore, I am willing to continue further along this journey. I thank God that I have the courage to respond to this mysterious calling and undertake this journey which I know has many challenges ahead, waiting for me to undertake. I have to admit that my past and secular life are still haunting me, but to fulfil my dream, the only way forward is not to give up and apply limitless effort.

Clementi Wong